Definition of Insanity

It is said the the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over while expecting different results. I must be insane. I am looking at the new year thinking that oh this year I will lose weight (did that in years past, and I weigh more now than I did then), that I will get organized (did that in years past), will work on the house (did that in years past and the house now needs repair not just sprucing up), I am still debating going back to school (and have lost the opportunity to finish a degree in 6 classes - new state licensure requires the complete masters not just an add on to the masters I have), things do not look like they will get any better with the coordinator of the program I teach in and how he interacts with me, and I continue to beat myself up for wasting the days away watching TV and yet the remote buttons have about lost their numbering from my channel surfing. I know I am the only one who can change it. I know it starts with me. I know I will feel better if I get back to the gym, learn to eat right, lose weight, take care of my house, get active and yet I continue to allow depression to swallow me.

Insanity!